So I don’t usually get this personal at Radical Doula, but this dream felt too relevant not to share. On Friday night, in the middle of facilitating a two-day training (my day job) I had a really vivid dream that I was pregnant. So vivid in fact that it stayed with me throughout most of the day on Saturday.
Now a pregnancy dream might not seem that odd, as I am a doula, and spend quite a bit of time thinking and writing about pregnancy and birth. But put me in the position of pregnant woman? That’s just weird. In the dream I was in New York, and knew I was pregnant, but apparently not how far along. I went to a birth center there (of course, even in my dreams I’ve still got my politics) and they informed me I was about to pop. Like any day. Mind you I was not very big in this dream, just a little tummy.
So then my panicked anxious self kicks in, thinking about how my life will change if I have a baby (I’ll have to move out of my group house!) and how I really want an abortion but its too late. The other thing that flashed through my dream-mind was: I have to find a doula!
A friend today informed me that pregnancy dreams mean something big in your life is about to change. That’s a possibility, but if there is one thing I know for sure, I won’t be getting pregnant in real life anytime soon.