Another awesome Radical Doula I want to highlight, Maria Dolorico, who is a doula in Boston. You can learn more about Maria at her website and her blog.
What made you become a doula?
I was an unlikely doula. I had no appreciation for birth as anything but a medical experience. My father is a retired anesthesiologist; growing up, if his chair was empty at the dinner table, it’s because he was giving an epidural. Anticipating the birth of my first child, I remember knowing I wanted an epidural, even saying, “There’s nothing natural about that kind of pain!”
Everything was going according to plan in my labor, and because of the epidural I felt the intense, but not quite painful pressure of the contractions. But then something amazing happened in second stage (pushing) – I felt myself giving birth. In my mind, I had never seen myself as anything but passive while laboring, yet with each contraction, I got behind each one and pushed my daughter further and further into the world. Between each contraction I was meditating, exquisitely focused on gathering my breath and my strength. Her birth was glorious, victorious, and I was heroic. I remember being a little sheepish as I told the birth story again and again, because it seemed to me that I was the only person on earth to have ever given birth before.
After her birth, I spent countless hours thinking up ways to get back into the delivery room. I thought about becoming a nurse, but had no interest in nursing outside of labor and delivery. Somewhere in this search, I heard the word “doula” for the first time, and I assumed that I could never be one because I didn’t see myself as an advocate for natural birth.
With my background and previous career as a mental health clinician, I began to work as a post-partum doula, finding clients who really benefited from not just my knowledge of infant care but from the intimate counseling and companionship I provided. The friend of a client asked me to be her birth doula because she “got such a good feeling” from me, and I vehemently declined. But she persisted, and serendipitously there was a birth doula workshop within a few weeks of her due date. I attended, bristling every time there was disparaging subtext about women who chose epidurals, yet I was excited finally to have a reason to be in the birth room. I knew in my heart that my doula practice would not be motivated by helping women have a natural birth, but by helping women find resources within themselves, at depths they never even imagined, in order to give birth in a way that was meaningful to them.
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